Lachrymose

There is aloneness, and there is loneliness. Aloneness doesn't turn into loneliness unless we feel there is someone or something missing in our lives.

I am feeling very lonely today. I don't know why. I feel like talking to my friends, but then I don't know what to talk.I feel like calling my mom and hear her voice but I don't know what's stopping me?. The weariness in my heart stings...and it stings hard. I can sense my eyes getting moist and I am trying hard to refrain the innocent drops from rolling down my cheeks.

And while I am undergoing the eclectic emotions,my extensive retrospections revealed the answer...

I have never been to a confession room in a church. People say it's the place where one confesses to one's heinous sins and misdemeanors and God condones them.

I have a confession to make... probably three... maybe four... or more than that, I... I don't know. All I know is that I am going to do it because I have now realized the cause of my sadness...